Tying Up Loose Ends

Green tea, sushiny days, my husband, art that I dont really understand, building snowmen, dolphins, feeling the sand between my toes, a good hamburger, vodka, working out, feeling strong, my future, my sister, feeling a slight breeze whisp through my hair, privacy, love, love-making, a babies laugh, the smell of roses, sleeping in on the weekends, being present, ocean waves, the feeling of accomplishment, giving advise, ice cream, my wedding ring, the idea of having a family with my husband, my… Continue

It has been so long since I have been on this site; it seems like people arent as involved anymore and the site wasnt giving me what it once had. But I am back to give it a second try . . . . . I am getting ready to wrap up season one with little success to my manifestations. I think this season was more orentation than anything else. I have realized how negative I can be and how I worry too damn much. Most importantly though, I have learned to recognize the people in my life that are and were… Continue

There comes a time in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new perspective. This is your awakening.… Continue

So I have finally decided to get my butt in gear and finish my schooling to become a teacher. I KNOW that is what I want to do but the problem is how to get there. I am currently enrolled in the University of Pheonix online courses and am almost finished with my Associates. They do not offer child development courses so I would have to get my master's through them to even consider teaching. I am worried about my "hire-abiliy" having a degree from an online course. Is this a legitamit concern? O… Continue

This last weekend James and I had to drive 600 miles to a funeral :( It was a nice road trip and I really enjoyed the time with my husband. The trip really put things into persepective for me. I have been with my husband for over 8 years now and most of his family still doesn't even know me - some were suprised to hear he was married. I am such a family-oriented person and really have no family to claim as my own. My dad lives in Hawaii, my mom and sister are over 500 miles away and I dont have… Continue