Life without my father must go on...
0 to 31... My father was alive.. He passed away Monday. 60 year old. Was going to turn 61 on the 29th of January. A very good man. He loved life. Always studying. He never stopped. Lately he was so much into homeopathy and natural medicines. He got his degree. I had designed a business card for him.. All of that is just GONE. Pouf.... Still weird. Happened too fast so fast.. But life must go on.
I had to go to work today cause Monday I start my new job. It's review time. I have to do reviews with my team and clean up the mess that was left in my absence. I had a few tears today... My boss.. my manager he was real nice and asked I guessed too many questions... He cool just like my father and tears just started to roll down...
Later on in the day .. some lady called to congratulate me on the new job and also to say how sorry she was to hear about my dad. She was getting chocked up on the phone and that got me going too a lil.
Denise .. this amazingly sweet girl on my team .. gave me a big hug in the morning and had to leave fast cause she was tearing up and later we were Google chatting and than she came over and sad in my cubicle and just CRIED! Her grandfather had just passed this xmas.. Funny enough she was so touched my my father's passing so sad for me and my family. That was so sweet. So touching. Some people have big hearts! I really like Denise a lot. Imma miss her cause I won't be working in the same building she is in.
My boss told me that he was trying to keep me for a few more days considering I have so many things left to do. But found out at the end of the day that I will have to attend training next week. So I'll have to hustle tomorrow and maybe on the wknd. I feel a little drained already!! I guess emotionally tired .. it's getting to me physically. I slept so little when my father was in the hospital .. just kept going and going. I guess I was high on adrenaline!
My sister just broke up with her bf today. She is a strong woman. I really respect her strong"ness". She respects herself and knows what she wants, who she is... where she is going and what she stands for.
I am really just kind of randomly rendering thoughts. Journal writing is good. I really need to do it more! I like how my CCOR friend Yvette Marie explained in her last video that we should try to type or write the GOOD things that happen to us during the day.. not always and only "bitch"...
I just closed my eyes for 2 seconds and rushed to my head thoughts of how busy I am going to be this month. Wishing myself luck and strength. I need to manifest STRENGTH and joy...
Gonna put Lilou's meditation piece and try to sleep now. OMG its so late!!! already :(
Byeeee Much love and health everyone!
Ohhh and M .. you are AMAZING and i love YOU!!!!
I had to go to work today cause Monday I start my new job. It's review time. I have to do reviews with my team and clean up the mess that was left in my absence. I had a few tears today... My boss.. my manager he was real nice and asked I guessed too many questions... He cool just like my father and tears just started to roll down...
Later on in the day .. some lady called to congratulate me on the new job and also to say how sorry she was to hear about my dad. She was getting chocked up on the phone and that got me going too a lil.
Denise .. this amazingly sweet girl on my team .. gave me a big hug in the morning and had to leave fast cause she was tearing up and later we were Google chatting and than she came over and sad in my cubicle and just CRIED! Her grandfather had just passed this xmas.. Funny enough she was so touched my my father's passing so sad for me and my family. That was so sweet. So touching. Some people have big hearts! I really like Denise a lot. Imma miss her cause I won't be working in the same building she is in.
My boss told me that he was trying to keep me for a few more days considering I have so many things left to do. But found out at the end of the day that I will have to attend training next week. So I'll have to hustle tomorrow and maybe on the wknd. I feel a little drained already!! I guess emotionally tired .. it's getting to me physically. I slept so little when my father was in the hospital .. just kept going and going. I guess I was high on adrenaline!
My sister just broke up with her bf today. She is a strong woman. I really respect her strong"ness". She respects herself and knows what she wants, who she is... where she is going and what she stands for.
I am really just kind of randomly rendering thoughts. Journal writing is good. I really need to do it more! I like how my CCOR friend Yvette Marie explained in her last video that we should try to type or write the GOOD things that happen to us during the day.. not always and only "bitch"...
I just closed my eyes for 2 seconds and rushed to my head thoughts of how busy I am going to be this month. Wishing myself luck and strength. I need to manifest STRENGTH and joy...
Gonna put Lilou's meditation piece and try to sleep now. OMG its so late!!! already :(
Byeeee Much love and health everyone!
Ohhh and M .. you are AMAZING and i love YOU!!!!
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Comment by Shayla on January 11, 2009 at 10:06am - Sweetie I apologize for your lost but you know where he is now..up in Heaven Chillin! lol. Can't wait to meet him (smile). I love you and try to slow down and relax a little.
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Comment by Rachel on January 11, 2009 at 1:45am -
So sorry to hear about your Dad sweetheart. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Sorry for being MIA for so long!! Good luck on Monday with your new job ( and CONGRATS by the way!!! ) I'm sorry your life seems to be so chaotic right now, it brings to mind an old saying of my mothers. "God will never give you more than you can handle....I think He may have over-estimated me." Hehe. I'll be thinking about you this week. As for you needing strength, you are already such a strong beautiful woman!
Peace and Love!
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Comment by Maggie on January 9, 2009 at 10:55am - my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am truly sorry for your loss. your dad sounds like an amazing person, and it sounds like he raised an amazing daughter in you- much love to you.
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Comment by Lena on January 9, 2009 at 10:26am -
I'm so sorry about your loss, I know how hard it is. But you have found yourself in a great place at work with people who are compassionate and caring ready to support you, as people on this site are too :)
I'm sending you lots of positive energy and strength, take time for yourself and your family and you will be blessed with peace.
Lena
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Comment by Angela "Vibe" on January 9, 2009 at 7:20am - I'm standing in front of my laptop crying tears for you my dear:) I lost my Mom in 07..I know how hard it can be but just know it will get better:) I have been missing her like crazy this week for some reason I guess I have found my reason:) I am here if ya need..Peace and Love sis..Stay strong:)
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Comment by Sonia Johnstone on January 9, 2009 at 5:53am -
Kia ora Lydia hi there honey I just wanted to send you bbbbbig hugs & lots of blessings your Dad must have been a precious person just like you, be gentle with yourself its not easy when a loved one passess on take care you & your family are in my thoughts & prayers Blessings Arohamai SoniaJ xoxoxox
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Comment by M on January 9, 2009 at 3:22am -
Hi Sweetie,
good to hear you are surrounded by loving compassionate people.
Maybe it's a good thing that you are so busy right now, keeps your mind from racing.
If you get really overwhelmed this weekend, let me know.
I will tell you a silly joke (that will take care of the joy part)
xx Em
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Comment by Emha on January 9, 2009 at 3:19am -
I'm sorry to hear you lost your dad. I lost my dad 16 years ago but I can still feel his presence every now and then. I know in my heart his energy is still with us.
Please take care of yourself!
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Comment by Nicole Biggs on January 9, 2009 at 2:36am -
I just want to say you are in my prayers. I lost my mom in August. Poof is right. Time heals but I am still emotionally drained so take care of yourself. It is my birthday today and everything seems off without my mom. Write if you need a friend. I know I have needed a lot of them.
Love and light,
Nikki
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Comment by Dale on January 9, 2009 at 12:58am - I'm very sorry you lost your Dad. But, it sounds like you were very lucky to have him. He sounds like he was a good guy.
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