season 1 day 92 - I GOT A JOB and other things

Yes its true! I got my medical receptionist job in London! Everything that I had written down manifested - from the salary to the position to the location of the job. Its amazing how it worked when things are written down! I got the news last Monday and started work immediately, hence the reason why I have not been online for a long time. Every step of the way I thanked the universe for this opportunity as there were more than 100 applicants for the position. My boss reminds me of how lucky I am, but I already know that. In my heart I've prayed about the rest of the applicants getting something that would suit their skills and help them.

Initially I was worried about the pay - its good - but the cost of living in London is high. But hey, the universe is there to help me and I've asked for more money to come my way through my writing or any other way - so I believe it will happen.

The only thing that has distracted me for the past several day is a love interest from the past. Its a very complicated and personal story but basically the option is to kind of have something with this person. Remembering the grief and disrespect doesn't exactly make me trust my heart with this person. The connection is every single way is present, but the doubt never goes. We've only just began to talk, only through phone, yet the feelings are palpable. I'm always thinking about it when i know I shouldn't. It makes me happy yet miserable at the same time. SO i've decided I should just let it go, if he wants to tell me how he feels, great. It would be best to start afresh with someone who didn;t cause me that much grief in the first place. Once we've met, I will cut this cord with love and peace.

From today onwards I'm gonna continue to focus on these feelings of gratitude, happiness, unconditional love, determination, optimism, self-respect, confidence. This is the new me, the new Resham, who wants a massive change, both physically and emotionally. In the past 92 days I've cleared away the cobwebs slowly but gradually to welcome this lovely breath of fresh air. I no longer constant approval nor do I feel needy. I just know and believe in myself. With 8 days to finish this challenge, its never felt this good. I feel this immense love taking over my heart, mind and soul and its AMAZING! All I feel is gratitude :0)

Love and blessings to all xx